So many people, saying so many things right now, from their perspectives. So here is my contribution.
The Perspective of a Single Mom:
I’m in a weird place where I don’t have enough alone time nor do I have enough social time. It’s a strange paradox and I’m definitely someone that needs both. As Jonah got older, I had hoped that he’d sleep better but, he doesn’t and I still don’t get enough rest and I am perpetually tired.
So, I guess what I’m trying to say is that I still not fully functioning. And there’s only so much of me divided between all the responsibilities. None of which I can or want to let go of.
I am barely functioning.
But this world is crazy right now and there’s so much I want to say and so much I want to do and I just can’t! It hurts me deep inside that I have so much within me that I can’t accomplish right now.
I’m a big vision, big impact kind of girl by nature. It’s been hard for me to allow myself to accept a smaller vision, smaller impact. To live in subtlety. To dedicate myself to a single human being, whose formative life experience I am solely responsible for. But it’s my biggest, most powerful, beautiful, exhausting, important job.
I have had to learn to accept that it’s small impacts over time that culminate in the biggest changes.
So, while the world swirls around me, and you all are adapting and responding to the sweeping changes, just know that I am here with you, raising my son to be the kind of man this world needs. That is my contribution right now and its more of what this world needs. Subtle actions and subtle changes. Taking charge over the influence you have on all of those around you.
May you all have fun with your families this Thanksgiving, making those small impacts on their lives.
Happy Thanksgiving!
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